Musings & More by Wendy
Wednesday, May 29, 2024
We Must Do Better
Friday, April 12, 2024
Looks Like We're Still Here ~
And speeding closer to the big wedding day 😍
In 308 days, Kimmie and Dustin will be married in the wedding of their dreams and God's design. I am certainly excited for my daughter, who has known abandonment and struggled with feeling worthy of love, to fully soak in all the love and adoration of Dustin. He truly is the physical representation of the man I prayed God would set apart for Kimmie. God is ALWAYS faithful to hear us - even when the answer is NO or WAIT. But when the answer is YES - He holds nothing back. What an awesome God I serve and love 💖
When reflecting on what we have experienced, I am reminded of all the times God has carried us, provided for us, protected us, and drawn us under His Wings. Kimmie and I have memories that still creep up to try and snare us in the trap of sadness, but we have far more Light shining around us that illuminates the path we walk on. These are happy days - even in the knowledge that Christ could return and bring us to our eternal home. Yes, there is joy in that future too.
Planning for our eternal home should be filled with expectation and obedience - just as with any other event we anticipate with excitement, like a wedding, a birth, a graduation, and such without the huge price tag because Christ has already paid the price for us to enter in. The challenge for us is to remain steadfast with our faith walk when trials come and the path narrows even more. We must remember to always keep our eyes fixed on Him and not look down or to ourselves or man. The traps can snare us much more quickly when we do not stay fixed on God through His Son, Jesus. As John 3:16-17 says, "For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life. For God did not send His Son into the world to condemn the world, but that the world through Him might be saved."
Currently at the church I attend, we are studying the Book of Hebrews and just began walking through chapter 2. This chapter speaks about the danger of drifting away when we are not anchored in Christ. Much like a boat poorly moored to a temporary post or dock that can come loose and drift off if not watched attentively, Christians can also drift if attention is taken away from our obedient fellowship with Christ. I love how God uses imagery with me when showing me something about His character and love for me. For example, the image of a boat tied up (see image):
I think of the account in God's Word when the disciples were at sea when a storm began to toss them about - this was after Jesus fed the masses with just five loaves and two fish - and Peter was called out to meet Christ on the water but, just when he was walking on the water he was overcome with doubt (took his eyes off of Christ Jesus) and began to sink. I ask you to think for a moment about what could have possibly been the cause to divert Peter's eyes from Jesus. Could it have been a thought about being unworthy? A sense of being too weak to press forward in the storm? Many times I have faced my own storms and struggled/wrestled with my human tendency to question those things in myself. Once my eyes are not on Him, I sink down and drift. When I turn my eyes back to Him, I am lifted and, once again, strengthened to keep moving onward to the prize of the high calling He has on me. Truly, there is no safer place than in the arms of my Savior. He is my Anchor, my Compass, my Healer, my Friend.
Nearer, my God, to thee, nearer to thee!
E'en though it be a cross that raiseth me,
Still all my song shall be,
Nearer, my God, to thee;
Nearer, my God, to thee, nearer to thee!
Though like the wanderer,
The sun gone down,
Darkness be over me, my rest a stone;
Yet in my dreams I'd be
Nearer, my God, to thee;
Nearer, my God, to thee, nearer to thee!
There let the way appear,
Steps unto heaven;
All that thou sendest me, in mercy given;
Angels to beckon me
Nearer, my God, to thee;
Nearer, my God, to thee, nearer to thee!
Then, with my waking thoughts bright with thy praise,
Out of my stony griefs Bethel I'll raise;
So by my woes to be
Nearer, my God, to thee;
Nearer, my God, to thee, nearer to thee!
Or if, on joyful wing cleaving the sky,
Sun, moon, and stars forgot, upward I fly,
Still all my song shall be,
Nearer, my God, to thee;
Nearer, my God, to thee, nearer to thee!
Yes, looks like we're still here ~
Be blessed and be a blessing,
WSW
Friday, November 10, 2023
Catch A Tiger By Its Tail
The month of October flew by! It was filled with all things Fall: pumpkin spice latte, cinnamon rolls, baked apples with caramel, and chocolate. There were football games and Homecoming festivities throughout this season as well. Kimmie and I were not able to travel as much as we would have liked, but we did manage to spend a weekend at the end of the month in Marshall, TX/Jacksonville, TX for ETBU Homecoming and...wait for it:
💍💐HER ENGAGEMENT TO DUSTIN 💍💐
On 10/28/23, Dustin pulled off the BIGGEST of all surprises on Kimmie by taking her on a walk down memory lane at ETBU that ended at the new Ponder Park/Chapel on the Hill (ETBU Wedding Chapel) with a proposal of marriage. This was witnessed by his mom, brother, my parents, and myself (Dustin's dad had gotten called away on work issue and was not able to come in person) and captured on film by a photographer from Haughton, LA. Kimmie had her moments of getting wise to his plan and doubting a proposal would happen at all - and I am happy to say she was definitely surprised and overcome with emotions. After the initial engagement pics, we walked around campus and the photographer took several other posed pics for engagement announcements/save the date cards before Dustin, Kimmie and I walked to the football field for the homecoming game and presentation of the homecoming court.
After the game, we headed to Tyler, TX to get into our hotel for a night (Dustin headed home to Jacksonville) since we were going to attend church with Dustin and his family the next morning. Dustin's mom, Cindy, organized a sweet engagement party that the church body and close family of his attended. There was brisket for tacos or sandwiches, chips and queso, spicy chicken to put on tortillas or bread, and cupcakes. Kimmie was touched by all the love and wishes for happiness as she and Dustin embark on the next chapter of their relationship.
They have not set a firm date for the wedding, but are looking at late 2024 or early 2025. There are lots of things to research and decide on, so having this year or more to plan is certainly beneficial. Enjoy these pics from the homecoming weekend/engagement. More to come!
Monday, October 16, 2023
A Timely Reminder
Wednesday, October 11, 2023
Times of Uncertainty...or are they?
Social media is buzzing with posts about these current events in Israel being the start of the Rapture or even the return of Christ Jesus, which based on what I have been able to research are two different events altogether. Both, however, are just the start of the Tribulation period and, for me, the true indication that God has completed the work He began at the start of Creation. I have also found that there have been several other times in history where Christians were convinced that the End Times were in their lifetime - so far six different wars in or over Israel in the last century. Uh-oh...this means this current conflict is the seventh (seven meaning completion). However, I go back to God's Word and find many times where there is mention of the destruction or end of this world and yet a promise at the same time that we are not to fear these things. God promises a future and a hope; He promises to be our strength and protection; He promises to restore and bless; and His love never ends. He even promises a new Heaven and new Earth - what that means I have not yet learned, but I am open to discovering as God chooses to reveal it.
Does all this mean that I have "rapture anxiety"? I don't know, honestly. I am not fearful of leaving this corrupt and sinful place that was once created to be a place of great beauty and peace - at least that is how I see Eden at the very start being. Furthermore, I am not fearful of standing before God in Heaven because my confidence is in Christ Jesus, now and forevermore. Perhaps the only lingering feelings of remorse are from the past - which I have to daily shed because they no longer have any power over me in Christ; they are filthy rags that I have taken off. I am now clothed in grace and mercy that my Father adorns me in. And yet I do hold onto faith the size of a mustard seed and the promises of hope and a future because I desire to witness my own daughter married and starting her own family so that I can see the fruit of His work in and through Kimmie and Dustin. These two young adults are passionate about living righteously before God and men, sowing seeds of salvation for the harvest yet to come, proclaiming the redemptive work only accomplished by Christ Jesus. Maybe it is foolish of me to have such hope, but I do not believe that God would answer prayers for a spouse, child, provision, healing, or other desire of the heart just to wipe it out as if it was of no value. Everything created by God has purpose and worth - and He says nothing from Him returns void.
I do believe that a revival and awakening started in 2022 and is only gaining momentum, though it appears the noise of it has quieted. Not sure exactly why, but just because the noise is less robust does not mean the work is done. The events happening now in Israel are definitely a wake up call for all of mankind - not just Christians - to recognize the great evil that permeates through every weakness of ours: greed, selfishness, pride, hatred, prejudice, jealousy, and lack of compassion. Yes, my dear Christian friends, we are also not immune to these venomous traits despite our conscious efforts to ward them off. There are times when I still find myself swallowed up by one or more and then being convicted by the Holy Spirit to seek forgiveness from God and those who I harmed with these traits. Be assured, none of us wakes up determined to harm another person and yet, when we are not careful of our sinful nature, we can do great harm without realizing it is happening.
Personally, it grieves me to watch those I love and admire be on opposite ends of what they believe - whether that is spiritual or political or moral. I have come to a point when I meet with others to use the disclaimer "let us agree to disagree in this area" and then continue to fellowship and love on them. There will be a day when we all will be in one accord when we are bowing before His Throne. Following are scriptures that support what I have stated here - whether you agree or not is not the issue:
Romans 6:6-7 Holman Christian Standard Bible
6 For we know that our old self was crucified with Him in order that sin’s dominion over the body may be abolished, so that we may no longer be enslaved to sin, 7 since a person who has died is freed from sin’s claims.
2 Corinthians 5:17, 20-21 Holman Christian Standard Bible
17 Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away, and look, new things have come….20 Therefore, we are ambassadors for Christ, certain that God is appealing through us. We plead on Christ’s behalf, “Be reconciled to God.” 21 He made the One who did not know sin to be sin[a] for us, so that we might become the righteousness of God in Him.
Tuesday, July 25, 2023
One Number That Is NEVER Busy - God's Phone Number
You see, prayer is a two-way form of communication and a way for our relationship to strengthen with God. The more we pray, the stronger our faith becomes and the deeper our confidence in that same faith gets. Like the psalmist writes in Psalms 1:3 "He is like a tree planted beside streams of water that bears its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither. Whatever he does prospers." A tree that is nourished by water will have strong roots that run deep, much like one who has a healthy prayer life will be nourished by the Holy Spirit and that nourishment will only work to making our faith go deeper and stronger.
The part we express in this two-way communication is the actual prayer, or talking part of the relationship. Hawkins reiterates what many psychologists and counselors know as fact: "to have a positive and productive relationship, there must be verbal communication" (page 65). This is also true when we pursue our relationship with God - there MUST be communication. If we fail to express ourselves verbally to our loving Father, the health of the relationship will deteriorate or die. We simply cannot let this happen - prayer is vital for our own spiritual growth! As Luke illustrated in his gospel, communicating with Him causes our hearts to burn when we hear from Him and, Hawkins states, when we hear from the Lord, God opens the Scripture to us (Hawkins, 2012).
There are four truths that we can take from a healthy prayer life: 1) God desires to fellowship (have relationship) with us; 2) God knows what is best for us; 3) God teaches us lessons by way of our prayers when answered as we ask or not; and 4) God reveals things to us about His character, His plans, and His love for us. These truths, when examined, show three things: why we pray, when to pray, and how to pray (Hawkins, 2012). Hawkins (2012) illustrates prayer as being like a symphony - "the Bible is the score, the Holy Spirit is the conductor, and we are the instruments". Furthermore, when we talk to God in prayer, He becomes real to us. Another tangible benefit from prayer is that a new dynamic to our Bible reading forms. Simply put, the reason why we pray is because God knows better than you and I about what we really need this side of Heaven. Hawkins (2012) states it this way: "[a]s we read God's Word, the Holy Spirit leads us in our prayer life, and we actually begin to pray the Scriptures for ourselves and for others." 1 Thessalonians 5:17 exhorts us to 'pray without ceasing' - in other words, live in a constant state of communion with God as we set out about our work and witness. We can take our cues from Jesus, the One Who was without sin, as to when to pray: day and night; in good and bad times; after great accomplishments and before great temptations of life. In all circumstances, He prayed - as should we. Lastly, how we pray is important.
There is a formula of sorts to prayer that Hawkins (2012) outlines as the right combination of humility and honor to God. He states that prayer should begin with confession, or agreement with God, that our sin is not to be minimized just because it may not be as bad as another person's transgression. Sin itself is what made the cross necessary. In our confessing, we should shine light on the sins related to our words, actions, thoughts, and omission (knowing to do right but not doing it). God promises us that "if we confess our sins, God is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness" [1 John 1:9]. From here, we move to the prayer of thanksgiving - thank Him for material blessings, physical blessings, spiritual blessings, and for the people who are important to us. Next comes the prayer of praise where we thank God for what He has done - for who He is! Recognize Him for His wonderful characteristics of goodness, patience, holiness, and mercy. After the prayer of praise, the next step is the prayer of intercession where we can boldly come to the throne of God on behalf of others (family members, friends, national and local leaders, unbelievers, and those who have spoken against us). Through prayer, we learn to be less selfish and more mindful of the needs of others. This is followed by the prayer of petition where we ask God for anything and everything that He has laid on our own heart. Lastly, there is the prayer of communion - and this is the part of prayer that is more than just mere words - it is where we become still and listen to God.
As part of the chorus in "Honey In The Rock" states:
You keep giving, keep providing
I have all that I need
You are all that I need
I keep praying, You keep moving
I keep praising, You keep proving
I have all that I need
You are all that I need
Thursday, July 20, 2023
Looking Ahead: A Birthday Post
There comes a time in life where we find ourselves reflecting back on the life we've lived, oftentimes landing in a pit of regret. At least that is what I have found to be true - for me. Now that my 56th trip around the sun is less than 48 hours, I felt the time was right to write down the lessons that I have learned so far as well as what I hope for the future - however much time God blesses me with in order to further live as a living testimony before others.
Over the twists and turns my life has taken (the ones that I can recall, that is), I have experienced more than many people realize or have knowledge about. For this post, however, I am only going to reflect on the lessons that truly had a profound impact on me. The first lesson: I am resilient. Though it was hard to see in difficult situations, I can confidently say this about myself. By definition, a resilient person is one who possesses "the ability to withstand adversity and bounce back from difficult life events. Being resilient does not mean a person doesn't experience stress, emotional upheaval, and suffering. Resilience involves the ability to work through emotional pain and suffering." From the years of bullying endured in school to the abuse experienced in my marriage, I have bounced back from these challenging life events - albeit a bit shaken, but still able to stand again. That is not to say that my feelings were not stomped on beyond recognition - they were. What I can say today is: no matter the difficulty faced, I can stand firmer against it and, should I stumble, know with certainty that I will stand once more. there is a motivational sign in my office that says, in part, "sparkle in my eye and a smile on my face. yep, I'm ready for the day...bring it on!"
The second lesson: I possess tenacity. Thinking of examples from my life to illustrate this strength has proven to be a bit more work for this old gal. After all, the definition of tenacity (on the surface) is not what I think of my traits at first: "the quality displayed by someone who just won't quit - who keeps trying until they reach their goal." I know many might think that of me because they have watched me be focused in light of my other trait of resilience. Focus and tenacity, for me, are two different things entirely. however, after reflecting on my life, I can see that I do possess tenacity in that I do have a blend of determination, persistence and grit when it is applied to the goals I have set for myself. I don't want to let go of what I am pursuing, especially if that objective serves to help me grow as an individual. Being born in the hot month of July, my zodiac sign is the crab (Cancer) - a crustacean that has a hard shell and no backbone (okay - I know that not having a backbone is not really a great thing from the lens of human qualities i.e. being able to withstand adversity and be courageous). I have a nightshirt that lists a few qualities/traits of someone born under this sign: nurturing, tenacious, imaginative, affectionate. My dad used to tell me that I had the tenacity of a bulldog (meaning that it was not easy for me to let go once I had a hold of something I wanted - like a dog with a bone). Using the crab again, I have a hard shell and pincers that apply a force many do not expect me to have. All in all, when applying tenacity to myself, I can agree wholeheartedly with possessing determination (focus), persistence (endurance/longsuffering) and grit (courage/resolve; strength of character).
The third lesson: I am optimistic. This last lesson likely does not come as a shocker to those who truly know me. For as long as I can recall, my tendency has always been that of a glass half full perspective. Despite being bullied in school, I was inclined to (after the required tears were shed) remain hopeful that those who bullied me would become my friends. Despite mental illness and abuse, I remained hopeful that my marriage would survive - and though it did not survive as I hoped, I personally did and successfully protected my daughter from further trauma witnessing the domestic violence that was going on. Furthermore, being a single parent who had to rewrite her goals and envision new dreams, I remained optimistic about my daughter's life experiences in the face of her own challenges - refusing to let anyone tell me otherwise. Lastly, having been separated from two great jobs under no fault of my own design, I allowed myself the time to mourn the lost income before dusting myself off and putting on my optimistic lenses once more. The outcome of the optimistic perspective? Refocus and redirection. You see, no matter what you set out to do, the first steps are to have focus and direction - see where you want to go and chart the path to get there. Optimism is vital when initially chasing one's dreams; but most notably when one finds themselves hitting a large obstacle that knocks them off course. Then they must re-focus (renewed vision for where one wants to go) and then re-direct (discover a new path to get there or identify the right way to get back on the initial path taken).
These three lessons are the ones that have truly impacted me over these 56 years of living - more so in the last 35 years than any other. I am certain that they will continue to impact me for the remainder of my days allotted to me by my Creator, my Father - God. My only desire is to make the most of these lessons, as well as any others that I learn from, so that they leave a fingerprint on those who come after me. A legacy of sorts, perhaps. A moral of the story, certainly. An illustration of a life filled with joy, blessing, and love - definitely.
Be blessed & be a blessing ~